Heal Myself

 

Sitting here, thinking about my life again
And I donÕt know if IÕll be able to write about anything else
Cuz thereÕs so much about me

And I can feel the Earth moving beneath me
The ants are going about their daily work
And the grass is shifting under my weight
And the weight of my childhood lies heavily on my chest

So, itÕs time for me to start telling the truth in my life
Stop pretending I donÕt see or hear anything at all
And I heard a poet quote another poet on some summerÕs day
She said we lie with words and silence, too

Chorus:
Wake me up from this long lost dream
Cuz IÕve been sleepwalking for most of my life now
And I donÕt know if this Earth can be healed
So IÕm working really hard to heal myself

And if you think itÕs getting better, then let me ask you this:
What if there were no bitch, no whore, no motherfucker
What if it was just fuck you, father?
I said, Fuckyoufather

Chorus:
Wake me up from this long lost dream
Cuz IÕve been sleepwalking for most of my life now
And I donÕt know if this Earth can be healed
So IÕm working really hard to heal myself

And what if women werenÕt afraid
And what if men werenÕt afraid too
And what if we all stopped to think about our place in this world
And what if I could love who I wanted
And what if I could be who I wanted

And I laugh when people tell me they donÕt want to be extreme
And I say think of this: misogynyÕs extreme
And patriarchyÕs extreme and homophobiaÕs extreme
And hatred is extreme and rape is extreme
And unconsciousness is extreme
And consciousness is extreme
And feeling is extreme and freedom is extreme
And choice is extreme and self-love is extreme

By singing, I heal myself
By climbing mountains, I heal myself
By lying under the Moon, I heal myself
By telling my stories, I heal myself

Chorus:
Wake me up from this long lost dream
Cuz IÕve been sleepwalking for most of my life now
And I donÕt know if this Earth can be healed
So IÕm working really hard to heal myself
IÕm working really hard, yeah, to heal myself